THANK YOU PLACES

Collision has inspired a change in my life. I have a fear of people but I know it is useless. And Collision has helped me to be okay with being afraid. Like Growtowski helped me with my fear of movement. I move all the time now. Fuck, I don't dance. I still hate dancing. I don't want to dance because I hate how my stomach and thighs jiggle. But I move. And Collision has pushed me towards the part of my life that wants to know people and understand things I don't usually want to understand. I want to be able to be okay with not knowing everything. I don't know much, and I realize that it really doesn't matter...so long as I can learn from other people. It's really disappointing how much of my teen years have been wasted sulking in self pitty. Shit, I've only got two more years to be a teenager. I better use it up. I want to soke up the world. I'm terrified of life, YES, but fuck that I don't care I'm still gunna jump of this damn building without a parachute. But all I wanna know is...


Will you come with me?

Theatre Rat

I'm loving loving loving acting through the summer. This just feels right. So I won't be dead when August comes around. I'm writing so much and sharing it with others and it feels good. Thank you for this opportunity.
I'm in love with my life. It's so beautifully human.

When in Doubt, be "Over There"

Every thing's jumbling around in my dippy head. I have thoughts of every thing. I want to do everything that I want to do but I just want to sleep more than that. I am waiting too much. That's my problem, I've become comfortable with waiting. And watching. And not doing anything about anything. I sit and watch things happen, wishing it was happening to me. But look at me. Where am I//what the hell am I doing? Shit. But sitting on my bum and whining like hell that nobody loves me and how badly I wanna go home. Shut up. I just wanna tell myself to shut up. Ha! If you want the damn boy to pay you attention then don't walk away in the middle of conversation. Yeah your fucking insecure who the FUCK isn't? I bet if you weren't always trying to predict people's actions, you'd be successful. Stop feeling guilty. You need to get out of your head.

I have to just go know and. Be

For the Benefit of Chelsea

HEY MAARIYAH, THIS IS CHElSEA I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. THIS TIME BABY
I'LL BE BURNING THROUGH

Monologue.

Susan:

I like old people, Mr. Slade. They appeal to me. Not because of the
fortune I extort from them or the salary I command as a nurse. Not
because I enjoy seeing doctors pack them in four and five to a room,
neglect them, tie them down, leave them in their own waste, and
frighten them I'm ways you and I will never understand until we face
old age ourselves. It's in spite of all that, Mr. Slade, they still
appeal to me. Why? Because at the edge of existance, in this world
they are still the most gallant people I know. And when a lady like
Mrs. Slade and a gentleman like Colonel Runney find each other, I
watch them grow younger! You can scoff at it and deny it but I say let
them keep their love!

Bliss >>> Insanity

Start
Roll around and shit
Form flower
Totum
Trust Circle
Collapse-Cat kicks
Floor Hand Flower/ Duets
Drag partner off stage...struggle

The Great Discovery

1. He's proactive, professional, witty, dedicated, personable, doesn't
sweat the small stuff, compassinate, reliable, gives of himself to
help others, a positive thinker, an amazing teacher, flexible...
2. •My mom: She's an author. She's had two New York Time's Best
Sellers and won many prizes, honours, and awards. She does
Psychological studies with teens and workshops to help them understand
themselves and how to be the best they can be. She also writes a
column for Instyle about Women and the many problems they face.
She is married and likes to travel with her husband, for relaxation or
volunteer work. She's the mother of Maariyah Faa'izah.
•Maariyah Faa'izah: A well-noted indie film actor who was recently
nominated for a golden-globe in a film that won the Film Festival de
Cannes, and will soon reach theatres nationally. Grounded in
traditional theatre, she's been apart of the Idiosyncrasies Theatre
Company in New York for the past 6 years. She is not just an actress,
however, and has published a few books on photography and poetry. Her
photography has been featured in many projects and portfolios,
including exhibitions at the J. Paul Getty Museum of Los Angeles and
the de Young Museum of San Fansisco. She recently has begun work on a
collection of life stories from various people told through
photographs, prose, and poetry.
Her husband and three children live in New York now, but also have a
home in San Fransisco,CA; Pheonix, AZ; and Atlanta,GA.
She loves cooking, drawing, attending lectures, participating in
volunteer work, helping others reach their potential, and playing piano.
•My Dad: Retired. Living out his dreams. He went back to college to
get his degree in engineering and has invented a few new items, which
were successfully recieved in the public arena. He has re-married
since Alicia, to a former university teacher. She's a warm personality
and she and dad travel the world with their terrior smith Rocky. He's
happy.
•Raahaad: He's still a gamer. But diffrently, he's a very very very
wealthy game mogul. He started off making the codecs for games, then
began collaborating with a group of other gaming engineers in college.
One trio was a hit: Rashaad, Victür Vinassi, & Ian Evans. They created
a few games together that all went to E3 and were nominated for
awards. They created VEIRVE, a gaming label (created by jumbling their
initials) that has taken off and become a household name.
•Amber Troi: She's a Music Therapist and works with the peace core.
Her life is busy, but so is mine. And we still hang out.
•Chelsea: Shes an awesome soul.
3. To save anyone's life.
To achieve nirvana.
For 6 million dollars or more.
To meet a man who loves me.
To go to the college of my choice.
To allieviate a fear of heights.
(I'd need a harness for this!)
4. One: Read
Two: Sleep
Three: Laugh
Four: Photograph things/people/places
Five: Feel attractive in my clothes
Six: Sing loud when I'm alone
Seven: Daydream
Eight: Go shopping without limits
Nine: Listen to oral stories
Ten: Look at life in different ways
5. The first thing that comes to mind. They know me in different ways
than I know myself.
6.